I'm lost. One minute everything is fine, I'm on my own, then you come along and complicate everything. You always have a way of finding me, even when I try to push you away. I tend to push people away a lot, it's a survival technique. Love is dangerous and one must be strong and brave. One must be fearless, because when you love someone you make a gamble. You put your heart on the line and you risk it getting broken. You always take that chance when you love someone. That's why you need to sit down and ask yourself is it worth it? I asked myself that everyday. The answer is always yes it is. Maybe I secretly doubt myself...maybe I secretly doubt you? I ask myself everyday is love worth it? It's so easy to run away from love, it's easy to shield myself from love and be on my own, facing love and embracing love now that is far more difficult.
So I ask myself everyday is it reeeally worth it,thinking I'll wake up one morning and my answer will change. I tell myself it will...the truth is it never does. I always answer yes.
I truely believe that corney saying "tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all" because even though I risk my heart everytime, and even though there is a chance that it will break (because eventually it will) I think it's worthwhile. Call me crazy, but I honestly believe we were created to love, and love, and keep loving people.
Granted, not all loves will last, and not all loves will work, but by taking that chance we also learn and grow. We learn about ourselves along the way, and other times we may lose ourselves along the way. Life is far too short for people to ask themselves "If only I...", I say do it! Nothing can stop us, but ourselves. At the end of the day ask yourself if you're happy, and if this person makes you happy. Because you should be. WE should all be happy.
So yeah I guess that makes me a hopeless romantic. No I've never seen true love but I also never seen God but that doesn't make me believe in faith any less. There's always a possibility that neither of these things exist, but that's a risk I'm willing to take. Yeah it has a price, and yes there will be a point where we don't believe in any of these things. Despite all my doubts I want to keep believing that it exists, I want something to lose because having something to lose is better than having nothing to lose. So I'm lost... because there are days I doubt Love, and I doubt you and myself. I keep on thinking I'll wake up a nonbeliever, but I won't...I will never stop loving you and I will never stop believing in love<3
