Goodbye.

don't leave...
I won't let you go
it hasn't been long
so I can't see you go.
I hate goodbyes, farewells, abientos...
I get all sentimental.
my heart keeps playing this sad melody of instrumentals
because you're boarding a train that's leaving transcontinental.
And what is to come of life without thee?
will the birds still sing
if you decide to leave?
will the moon still rise
in the darkest of nights?
and will the sun still set
even after you have left?
we can't escape time... is inevitable
so lets make these few moments unforgettable.
but please when it's your time to leave
promise you'll never forget me...

Not my best work. Just some random thoughts and feelings I've compiled into words. I wrote this poem for several reasons. Some of the dearest people in my life are and moving on with their lives. I know what it feels like to be abandoned, which is why I fear goodbyes so much. I don't want this year to end because I'm not ready to let go of these people I love. I guess this is how life works. Maybe this is a test from God...a lesson I need to learn, and maybe I'll become a stronger person and heal all my past wounds.

Imogen Heap

Today I decided to promote one of my favorite female artist named Imogen Heap. Imogen Heap is very eccentric and one of a kind. Her music is abstract art and poetry, it's genuine and different. She reminds me of Picasso but in music. I feel like so many artists lack that in the music they produce. Imogen's creates her music in the most creative ways. Her voice is unique and her music touches my heart dearly. I admire Imogen's uniqueness and wish more music was like hers. Nowadays artists are more concerned with satisfiying their listeners rather and than producing beautiful and meaningful music they produce mediocre music with a catchy tune and catchy beat. In my opinion nowadays the essence of music has been lost because some artists are more interested in their paychecks than the actual work they produce.Imogen has inspired my poetry and her unique style has changed my music preferences. I have become really fond of alternative rock, indie rock, and even reggae because I have become more diverse and open minded with music. Music is not just a form of entertainment it's art, poetry, literature and its people like Imogen who preserve the true meaning of music.

well I hope you listen to this some of Imogen's work please be open minded, and I promise that after a couple times you listen to it you'll fall in love with her unique stlye of music.

listen to;
Hide and Seek
Let Go
Sleep
Clear the area
The moment I said it
Can't take it in
Canvas

some of my amature poetry

I remember,
singing hit me baby one more time
as I danced in the kitchen at dinner time
to a time that was young and bright
made with laughs and pillow fights
and playing tag till the sky turned into night.
I remember,
riding my two wheeler bike
strait into a rose bush
you held me tight
and told me it was okay to cry.
I remember,
running through the sprinklers in the summertime
picking flowers and counting butterflies
never keeping track of time...
time, time it just flys on by.
I remember,
jump rope and those silly hand games
about some african lady who kissed kissed kissed with her red hot lips
that time was made of utter bliss.
I remember,
the day you left
without any remorse or regret,
it's one memory I wished to forget...
I remember,
how life used to be,
how I used to be,
and how those memories will never leave me...

the inspiration to this poem came from a few random memories that occassionally cross my mind, I reflect on these memories because I believe that every memory and event be it big or small has greatly influnced in shaping the person I am today. I am a child at heart who misses
the time of innocence and pure happiness because childen live in an oblivious utopian world, and growing up is difficult. I don't ever wish to change or take back any memory because I have grown from them so much.

Cabaret

On saturday my older sister took me to USC to watch a play callled Cabaret. Walking into the small theatre I had no idea what this play would be about. The play took place in Germany before world war 11. The setting was as a night club or brothel house called The Kit Kat club,
where men and women entertain each other and the audience. The women wore dark lingere and heavy makeup, and the story line was told by a funny capricious host who also worked in the club.

The play addressed many issues regarding homosexuality, love, happiness, and how Nazi's in germany altered these issues. Many people were forced to change their lifestyles and even their personalities to avoid the Nazis. There was one scene in the play that deeply moved my sister and I. The scene involved the host and an abnormally tall man in a gorilla mask and pink tutu. The two danced intimately whild the host sang "if only you knew, if only you saw her like I do". I immediately thought of my sister and her boyfriend, my sister is latina and light skinned her boyfriend is black. Whenever my sister and her boyfriend are together they are faced with discrimination from all races particulary other latinos and blacks. That scene made me reflect on the people I care about, and how it shouldn't matter what anyone else see's as long as I care for them.
The play ended ironically the way it began, except the actors came out with their faces wiped clean and wearing all black and the host wore white, he stood in the middle as a nazi casually sauntered the stage with an expression of evil satisfaction, and then the stage went black.
This play was like none I've ever seen. It was unique, entertaining, and beautiful I loved everything about it and the symbolic meaning behind it. I wish I could watch it again, if you hear about this play I reccomend watching it, but with an open mind and an open heart.

Greatness

"Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and others have greatness thrust apon them"

-Shakespere

Thursday November 11, 2010 was a momentous and triumphant day for my cousin Cristobal Escobar. Chris grew up in Burbank a nice respectable neighborhood but Chris's childhood life was anything but pleasant. To preserve the privacy of my cousin and his family I will only say that Cristobal's father wasn't a good father to his wife or kids,As a child Chris also suffered from ADHD making it difficult for him to concentrate and remain still. Chris would get into many fights until he decided to put all his energy in sports. Sports became Chris's safe haven away from problems and distractions at home. The stuggles that Chris surpassed has influenced the great and impeccable athlete and person he is today.

Chris is 16 years old, a junior at John Burroughs High School. At Burroughs Chris plays varsity soccer and football. The big day had arrived on Thursday November 11, 2010 it would be the day that Burroughs Football team would play against their city rival Burbank High for a position in the Championships. The first 3 quarters Burroughs was losing it wasn't until the 4rd quarter when a touch down tied both teams up. There was only 4.7 seconds left on the clock and that's when Chris's coach chose him to kick the winning field goal. Chris approached the field and in those 4.7 seconds he kicked the 21-yard field goal that won the game. Burroughs won Burbank 38-35. Chris made victory in Burbank's books. Some peope were born with talent, others get lucky, but there are those like that little boy with the rough childhood who triumphed through hard work and perserverence. Chris is proof that nothing in life is unattainable. I am proud to say I'm related to this inspiring guy, I love you Chris keep up the good work!

Catfish

My sister is taking a cinema class at USC where she gets to watch movies before they go into theatres.After they watch the movie they meet either the actor, director, producer or some other important person and ask them questions. Since I was still on my long summer break she invited me to her 4 hour late class. Eager to experience an actual college class I agreed to go. I wasn't very much interested in watching a movie because lately movies have disappointed me in their lack of; creativity, originality, and meaning. I am a firm believer that every movie has its own a moral.
To my suprise we weren't watching an overrated, overadvertised,cliche movies. The film was called Catfish and it was a documentary. Now because I want you to watch the movie I vowed thatI would try my best not to spoil anything. However, I will tell you what I received from this unique documentary.
Quite frankly, Catfish in not like any other movie or documentary you've ever seen. It's best to know as little as possible about this movie so don't go researching the movie otherwise it defeats the purpose of watching it. Watch the movie and don't try to analyze it, just watch it with a clear mind and let the story envelop you and unfold in front of your eyes. The movie is funny, romantic, sad, suspenseful, and real. I actually got to meet the 3 young guys who were in the movie which was an unforgettable experience. They were were genuine, honest, down to earth guys who decided to document what happened to their friend that so often happens to people through these computer social networks
Catfish is one of those films that makes you think and reflect yourself as well as your own life. How much do you really know your "friends"? Watching this movie makes me value traditional human to human connections that technology has minimized for young adults and people in general.

As a final comment to wrap up this post I want to say that there was one quote in the movie that really moved me, that makes me think of the people who keep me going in life...instead of spoiling that quote for you I'll leave it up to you to watch the movie, and figure it out yourself.

My playlist

Christina Aguilera - You Lost Me

listen to this beautiful song:)

8 days and a life long message

"Some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same"

Here's a short story that happened to me in the summer. It was the first trip to Cancun. It was our first trip with my sisters, my dad and I without my mom. My dad the frugal man that he is chose the most inexpensive package for our airplane tickets and hotel. My sisters and I filled with excitement didn't care; we were in paradise for goodness sake. We swallowed our words when we arrived at the 3 star hotel. First of all there was not air conditioning! All the guests were young smokers and our room was so small we felt suffocated, not to mention the annoying ring the elevator made throughout the night. We felt miserable and homesick. We would not survive here for 8 long days. The best part of our room was the view. For some reason the sunsets in Cancun looked so much more beautiful than the ones in LA.

Its funny how talking to a stranger can lead you to a 5 star hotel. Then buying a time share, then being able to spend your vacation in a 5 star all inclusive hotel, and free activities. We were thrilled to finally leave our stuffy lame hotel for a 5 star palace. Our vacation began to feel like paradise.

One of our activities included in our packages was 4 tickets to famous Chichen Itza (in my opinion in of the 7 wonders of the world). Mayan pyramids and geological artifacts amazed me. My two sisters only concerned with the heat. As I stood in the center of an old Mayan ball game arena a young Mayan native vender approached me. Instead of asking me to buy something he asked me if I lived in the U.S. He asked me if it was beautiful on "the other side", I said yes. Our conversation had to end because my group was leaving, I never caught his name. On our last day in Cancun as we boarded the plane I thought about that young guy I met. It made me incredibly depressed thinking about how people must ignore him, and that he may never get to visit the U.S.

I guess you can say I had a manifestation, at that moment I realized that life isn't about air conditioning or fancy hotels. It’s about how the whole world shares the stars and sunsets. Who knew that a stranger could move me so much. I am grateful to have met him. Its like the saying goes" Some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same." I like to believe that the young stranger I met in ancient Mayan ruins feels the same

Aids Walk 10-17-10

Today me and a group of friends volunteered for the Aids Walk. We had to be in West Hollywood at 6:46 a.m. Once we signed in we recieved a free T-shirt and coffee with a bananna. We were assigned a statiom in which our job was to ensure the safety of the walkers.
As the 6 mile walk began people of all different cultures and ethnicities marched together as one. They were all united by a common issue, to fight against AIDS!
Being a monitor volunteer my goup and I encouraged the walkers and gave them high fives! Many grateful people even thanked us and hugged us. As crouds of people walked by I could feel my heart rising out of my chest. It was a beautiful,powerful moment for the walkers as well as myself.
As the end of the walk approached a younger man in a cane walked passed us. His name was Joe, an aids survivor who was placed on a wheel chair, cruthches and can now walk all on his own due to his strength and hope!
This event, and the amazing people have helped me realize that anything is possible! People can do great and spectacular things in the world! It also helped me discover that we are all united in some way or another. Together people will fight for a good cause. These are the small steps people can take to better this world!I am thankful for having take part in such an amazing event like this one! I will most definately be returning next year! I'll update this blog later from pictures of the event.



more pics coming soon.

Alicia Keys - Unthinkable ft. Drake 2010 HD

Its one of my favorite videos that Drake produced.

How would you spend your last day on Earth?

Death, is just an overrated misconception. Everyone thinks its sad and horrible. I see death differently. I believe in rebirth and an after life, after all people need something to live for.
Everyone fears death. I don't fear death itself because its normal everybody goes through it, instead I fear more what I'll miss out in life once I'm gone.
I believe everyone has a purpose in life, and once they fufill their purpose they can leave earth to a better place. What if you could somehow know when you were going to die? What would you do? What would you say? Who would you want to spend it with?
My fantasy:
If it was my last day to live I would like to spend it in Cancun or Hawaii or a beautiful Paradise. I would be up at dawn to enjoy the sunrise with my family. I would eat the best most expensive meals on the menu. The day would be followed with an exhilerating adventure like bungee jumping. The day would be filled with smiles, laughter, and love. Then a picnic in a hot air balloon. After that, I would like to watch the sunset on the beautiful beach. Warmed by a nice bon fire and roasted marshmellows. I would look up at the stars and listen to the waves on the ocean. I would end the day with a short and brief farewell (because I dislike goodbyes). It would be a day to remember.
My reality:
I would wake up early to watch the sunrise on the roof. I would like to be in my city because this is where I grew up and lived. It contains all my memories and loved ones. Then, I would go to the donut shop down the street for breakfast with my mom and sisters because it was a tradition since kindergarden. I would go to the park and ride my blue bike and let the wind blow in my hair and face. We would have a picnic by the trees and playground. We would look at old pictures and reminisce. Laughing and crying at all the good times. At home we would watch the sunset and lay outside on the cool grass to watch the stars . I would listen to my sister sing, while my younger sister played the guitar. I would tell them how much I loved them. I would say goodbye because it would be the last goodbye I would ever say. It would be a simple day. Nothing fancy all I need is my loved ones. The day would be fairly plain and uncomplicated. That would be how I spend my last day on earth.

My favorite quote

"Everything you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it because nobody else will"-Ghandi

Ghandi is one of my favorite historic figures. He wanted peace...not the kind of peace you get from violence or war but through pure peacefulness. He inspires me. I hope to accomplish great things in my own life, regardless of how insignificant it may be. I would just like to make an impact in somebody else's life. Just the other day I was in the TJ Mexico area visiting my grandmother, and I met 5 beautful little girls. They were 12 years old and younger. These girls asked me to teach them how to write. The joy it brought them to spell their own names brought me emmense happiness. These girls are surrounded in poverty, dirt, and they live in shacks. These girls were even lucky to own just a new pair of shoes. It astounded me how happy thse girls were in their homes. They drew flowers, rain, and smiles. It made me truely value and ackowledge how fortunate I am. I think I would like to work with children I desire to help people and kids. I don't know exactly what I want to do with myself but it was nice doing a small thing like, teaching underpriviledged kids to write. I thank these girls for the valuable lesson they taught me. I plan to keep close relations with these girls and hopefully they to can do something small that will make an impact on someone else's world.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Each prayer accepted, and each wish resign'd.

-Alexander Pope

That is my favorite quote from the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. The movie although, not very popular in the box office is one of the greatest most influential movies I have ever watched. The movie isn't mediocre or predictable like many you see nowadays.Its eccentric and brilliant! Its a love story like no other! Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet's acting is impeccable, you fall in love with their characters. The movie is dynamic and thought provoking. Its a physcological thriller. Its a must see. It may require watching it a few times to really get it.
The quote makes me wonder if I had the option to erase something from my mind would I do it? Would you? How would it feel to have a clean slate, to be able to wake up in the morning with no more pain, or sad unforgotten memories. How would the world and humans be different if this was possible?
My philosophy of the matter is simply that life does not come with erasers. How else would people learn if they didn't make mistakes or go through something traumatic in their lives? I believe that these painful and hard impediments should be overcome. People need to become stronger and grow, otherwise people would make the same mistakes. I am grateful for every single mistake I ever made in my life. I take mistakes as a learning experience. Live & learn, its a lame cliche but its oh so true.
Watch the movie yourself and make your own opinion about the matter, its worth it:)

My New blog:)

I have created this blog to discuss my inner most personal thoughts and feelings about random situations in life. This blog will contain poetry, photography, songs, movie critiques, controversial topics i have encountered, and much much more.

but until then a bientot!

- yours truly Cassandra